Freedom to Wonder

“We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.”
~ C.S. Lewis

I came across this quote the other day by C.S. Lewis.  I’ve been thinking about it quite a bit.  It’s a very short and simple quote but it also feels like it has a deep, almost hidden meaning.  It reveals a truth in our hearts that we know is there, but we don’t often talk about it.
When God takes us down hard paths, paths full of pain, paths full of waiting, and paths full of confusion, we end up finding ourselves full of uncertainty.  We find ourselves doubting and wondering how the path we are on is truly what’s best for us?  We think that surely there must be a better way? I know I’ve felt that way before when God takes me down a road I don’t want to go.  “Surely,” I say in my heart, “this cannot be God’s plan for me.”
But what I believe this quote is saying is that it’s okay when we have these doubts.  It’s okay to feel the weight of all the pain and wish things might be different.  But deep down, if you are a Christian, you also know that God’s ways truly is best.
It’s not that we doubt God’s plan, but our hearts wonder how all the pain is a part of it.
The simple truth is that we aren’t doubting God or his methods.  Instead, our mind is simply wondering how much longer the path will be, how many more curveballs will we have to face before we get to the end, and what is the meaning in it all.  We can’t see what God see’s, but we hold onto the truth that God truly is taking us down the best path. And we know that in the end, we will be able to see and understand why it was all necessary.

The quote above reminds me of one of my favorite quotes by Amy Carmicheal;

We are not asked to SEE. Why need we when we KNOW? We know; not the answer to the inevitable WHY, but the inconsltestable fact that it is for our best. ~Amy Carmicheal

As we walk through this life, we don’t have to ever worry or doubt that God isn’t going to do what’s best.  We can have complete confidence that God is going to take us down the best path.  But we also have the freedom to wonder and ask questions about why and how long.  This is how we learn to rely on God and trust him during the hardest of valleys.  Take your thoughts and worries to God and you will find that he will give you everything you need 🙂

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